Saturday, February 11, 2012

Empowered...


Painted in 2007
I remember feeling ready to move on from the pain that I had been experiencing at the time.  I was feeling strong and peaceful, knowing my life could be as full as I wanted to make it, completely in front of me, and mine to make the most of.  I am feeling like that again for the first time in awhile.  I can only attribute this to a renewed sense of willingness and faith and the courage to take the action around it.  Surprisingly enough, doing the work, WORKS.  Thanks, thanks, thanks...HP, sponsor, friends, and family. 



Close up

Close up

Loss...

Painted early 2007
This was painted right after my separate from my husband.  I no longer had my children on a daily basis, which was one of the most painful experiences of my life.  I saw a lot of red and black when I closed my eyes every night when I was not tucking them in.  I did not have much peace during these times, but staying close to the program of Alcoholics Anonomous, my HP and the support group that I had found, I did not find it necessary to drink through this pain and for that I will be forever grateful.

Close up

Close up


Playful, experimenting

Painted mid 2010

I was desparately trying to get out of my black and red phase (apparently couldn't quite let go) so I was experimenting with some differnt colors.  This was painted right after I finished my biggest piece titled "abandonment", which was actually a three year project.  I was feeling like I was ready to break out and paint some joy.  I don't know if it was successful, but I had fun doing it...most important, I think.